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ing an average score for 18 holes by a few strokes. To go from "good" to professional is tougher than getting from unskilled to good.
Each level of advancement takes more work. At the last level, even though the difference in score is very slight, the difference in playing ability is immense. It takes a long time and an unusual amount of dedication to move from a high level of skill to a higher level. A lot of people go for it and don't make it, in golf and tennis and a lot of other sports.
Daydreaming about being a pro can interfere with your practice and your game. Planning each shot and then being present to the shot you are making over and over again is a level of non-hysterical concentration in which the ego of the concentrator doesn't exist because there is no difference in that being concentrated on and the concentrator—no diff er- ence between the act and the actor, the play and the player. The ball is hit and it rolls toward the hole and you wonder why people want to give you credit for it.
To really clean up your act with regard to lying is like becoming a pro. If you were well-loved as a small child, you have more natural ability for the first level of growth in tell- ing the truth. If you suffered a lot in developing your identity in adolescence, but developed an identity that showed forth regardless of the roles you played, so that the lies you told yourself and others about who you were actually worked, you have a better chance of making it past the second level of telling the truth.
You have to have an ego to give one up. You can only admit the truth about your various poses, and your funda- mental pose (what many personality theorists call the self),
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